11.10.12

I wonder if you even looked at me when you saw me. Did you even think about me or was I just another person who didn't matter in the back of your mind? Did you used to like me or do you still? Did you even like me in the first place? Or am I just too unbearably ugly for you or anyone else to like? I wish I knew but I'll never know.
But just so you know (in case you're reading this, which you're probably not) I really like you. And what's worse is I don't even talk to you. I base it all on the memories from the past. I wouldn't call it love, but it's stronger than a crush and I wish I could tell you everything, but I can't. And maybe I'm really weird for thinking this but I think about the things we would do if you were actually my boyfriend. I think about cuddling with you in bed and just listening to music or slow dancing listening to norah jones or a bajillion other things, but the amount of these things that will actually happen is zero. There's not a chance that I will have any experiences with you. I won't have my first kiss with you, or get to hold hands with you, which would be the first guy I would get to hold hands with. None. And what's worse? I know I need to stop thinking about you because I know I'll never be with you but I can't. So from here, I shall be deprived some more from the life I wish I could have with you.

En Route

Good morning! Although I may seem like I'm in a cheery and happy mood, I'm actually really exhausted. As you may or may not know, I play varsity volleyball for my school, which is a huge time commitment. From August 8-30, our whole team does two-a-days or as I would like to call it, hell. Basically we have conditioning in the morning for 2 hours of just exercising and then for 3 hours in the evening, practice. Any time in between these hours are either spent resting, relaxing, or reading (we can't forget about our summer assignments!). So, as I am on my way down to Richmond for a volleyball tournament, I am quenched of thirst and a little grumpy. Wish me luck at showcase though and my next post will probably be about the first day of school.

XO.

undone.

     Isn't it amazing how time flies? I can't believe the last post I had on here was about 2 years ago. Just reading over my last posts just made me realize how much I have changed over the past two years; I guess you could say it's both insightful and interesting and a few times almost brought me to tears. Well, to "reintroduce" myself, it's still me Haley, still pale, and have mostly the same interests I did back then. Changes do come and go though and with this it means I am now 17 and about to start my senior year of high school. I can't believe it either. I'm still working on getting to New York, making it my priority through my college choices (and hopefully achieving that). If you haven't guessed it already, yes, New York University. I'm done with this "suburban-stereotypical" life. I'm moving on and moving up. And hopefully with that to better things. I'm done with the people, places, everything. It's all too familiar, my "regular" day basically consists of waking up at 6 (but not wanting to), get ready for school, go to school, come home, eat, do homework until the ungodly hours of early morning, and repeat the process over and over again, all the while dealing with family relationships, extracurriculars, and just life in general. Maybe I'm making my life seem a lot more hard or a lot easier than it really is, but I know that at the end of the day I'm usually exhausted, and might I add a little grumpy. Now, I know some of these things may not change in life, but I know for a fact that some of them will because I will be living MY life, not the depressing, slow-paced, and predictable life I do live. I know there will be change and I can tell it will be immediate (or at least I hope). I may be leaving you on a blank page here ending right now or left unsure about the things I have just said, but I'll be back, I promise, and this time, not in 2 years but hopefully more like 2 days.

                                       XOXO-Pale & Pretty

4.7.11

I officially suck at blogging. Oh, well. Because of this, I'm just going to write some of my favorite things because I'm in a VERY good mood today, so here it goes.

• summer mornings
• long road trips of just listening to music
• getting magazines in the mail
• reading magazines on rainy days
• wellies
• heels
• rings
• leather jackets
• my moms home-cooked food
• new york city
• finding that perfect item of clothing under a pile
• fresh fruit
• walking on the beach at night
• reading a good book
• dogs
• riding my bike
• taking photos
• my little brother, he's so cute!
• blue skies and sunny days
• the real housewives

Yeah, thats about it. Random and really stupid, but whatever. Tomorrow is Friday and then this weekend is busy, busy, busy. I've been dressing like crap a lot lately too and I haven't gone shopping, wait for it...in a month. So bad, I know and I have like $100 in giftcards from my birthday, so I better use those up.

Pretty proud of myself though because I've been excercising a lot lately-dont ask about how I've been eating. Bad is the only way to put it. Well, I'm about to fall asleep at the computer although its only 6:40 and I have practice until 10:30 tonight, so my best bet is to relax for a few. I will try to post more, maybe go shopping sometime soon and post what I get.

Haley

saturday.2.5.11.

(sorry its a little blurry)

Dress: TJ Maxx

Sweater: F21

Tights: Express

Boots: ?

Rings: Target

Pacsun

Charming Charlies

Kind of really obsessed with this dress/shirt. The back is adorabable but since I wore a sweater with it, you can't see it. The best thing though, is that since it's from Tj Maxx, it was only 12 dollars! I can't believe it either!

Anyways, this week was VERY stressful. I had 6 midterms this week and I only had school Wednesday-Friday, so thats basically 2 midterms per day so I had my share of late nights this week. Thankfully though, teachers don't assign any homework after them, so this weekend is work free!

Today, I just took some pictures of my little brother who wouldn't sit still for ANYTHING. Then, I went to do some shopping with my mom and unfortunately didn't buy anything because I only have 40 dollars. But, when I do get a job, and do get some money, I will be spending it all at H&M. I saw sooo many things I wanted, but it made me a little depressed about the fact that I couldnt buy anything.

This is probably going to be the only post this week, but I'll try. Tomorrow my day will consist of watching the superbowl, eating, and probably helping my mom cook.

goodnight,

Haley

dont want to go to school...

today has been an interesting day. went to church. messed around on the computer. created this blog. emailed kate lanphear. getting in trouble for not doing my homework. checked my email about one hundred times. and cleaned my room.

this is just a quick post because my parents are nagging me about stuff but im going to try and post tomorrow. we'll see.

quick intro: haley s. 16. washington dc. lover of fashion. photographer. just-starting-out model. wishing and praying everyday and night to go to nyc. well, thats me.